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October 23, 2008
By Kiren Valjee

I am deadlier than thou.

And on my way to certain disaster, I’m trying to find my way to ubuntu. If you know the way feel free to take my hand.

Question #10:
You are watching a movie in a crowded theater. Though the plot is mediocre, you find yourself dazzled by the special effects. But with twenty minutes left in the film, you are struck with an undeniable feeling of doom: You are suddenly certain your mother has just died. There is no logical reason for this to be true, but you are certain of it. You are overtaken with the irrational metaphysical sense that—somewhere—your mom has just perished. But this is only an intuitive, amorphous feeling; there is no evidence for this, and your mother has not been ill.
Would you immediately exit the theater, or would you finish watching the movie?

Historically, my feelings have gotten me nothing but trouble. My mother and I don’t really get along. Hold on, let me take that back. We get along fine. But we fake it. We’ll get along until the next time we fight. Until that day, we pretend, mostly for my father and brother. Or perhaps I fake it for her and she is faking it for me. Too much effort? Maybe. But I’ve been doing it for about 15 years now. I’ve gotten rather good at it.

I’d stay till the end of the movie. If it turned out it she was dead, 20 minutes wouldn’t make a difference. I would just have 20 less minutes to grieve and question my decisions of the past. My name is RustedJesus and I’ve never claimed to be saint.

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6 Responses to “ 10 of 23 ”

  1. bucky_katz on October 23, 2008 at 11:04 pm

    I would leave, because I am paranoid like that. But I really see your point about the 20 minute window being inconsequential.

  2. revisingproust on October 26, 2008 at 3:06 am

    i’d leave the movie.

    i had a feeling like this two weeks ago or so when i was working on an upcoming project for this site with the-ever-elusive BrandyB.

    i could’ve sworn my bunny died.

    anyway, i called the bunny’s dad (a.k.a. my ex-bf) and he sent me something. hold on. next comment.

    while you’re holding, actually, i am going to change my answer.

    as you’ll soon see, my bunster is still alive and cute as ever.

    for mental health reasons, it’s probably best if i tone down the irrational aspect of my metaphysical sense(s).

  3. revisingproust on October 26, 2008 at 3:18 am

  4. bucky_katz on October 26, 2008 at 8:53 pm

    i am in love with your bunnay. he looks like he has an agenda.

  5. Lonnie on October 29, 2008 at 4:10 pm

    revising–
    i dont think your ex-bf is giving your bunny friend enough exercise–bunny-besity is a silent killer, ms. proust.

    rustedJ–
    your answer is perfect. and thank you for mentioning unbuntu.

  6. Harrumph on October 31, 2008 at 12:00 am

    You really need to ask yourself: What would your potentially dead mother want you to do? If she is already dead, you must do the things that give her spirit in heaven the most joy. For me, it would be staying for the whole movie, then getting a free refill on the extra-large popcorn so I could either bury her with it, or eat it with her.

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